making change

i really am horrible at keeping a blog, especially when things get busy (not like that).

spring break was really great. hanging out with the pimping 101 girls in vegas was one thing that i am always going to treasure. who can't beat being with beautiful women with whom you can laugh, dance, eat, shop, and party three nights in a row? the memories of our last year in college that we created will last a lifetime (nancy's eating techniques, hot luv, daniel, shots out of dixie cups, freaky random people from SD, ian, pai gow!, short dude at studio 51, jenn's propensity for black guys - oh wait, that's normal).

on easter sunday of spring break, i was privileged to attend the Shulgin picnic up in the East Bay hills with some of the DanceSafe crew. it was delicious homemade food at a gorgeous picnic setting, a large farmhouse hidden among old pines and oaks, settled between rolling hills. The skies were clear when we arrived, but most of the time was spent huddled under the protection of various greenery and overhangs from random spurts of rain. it was a fun way to meet friends of the Shulgins and hear about how people from all walks of life became interested in psychedelics.

after break, school was extremely busy, mostly because of all the studying i didn't get done in vegas. the immuno midterm almost overwhelmed me, but now that i have it back, i'm glad i studied for it 24/7. my pEy came up for a wonderful weekend. i always love having him here. he's such a calming force in my life, bringing me back to center and helping me focus on what's important in life. we got to have lots of salad and homecooked food, spend some quality time in bed together (hehee), and went hiking at tilden before he went back to SD. it means sooo much that he likes my cooking cuz food's important to both of us and it'd be one thing i'd be afraid i was subpar at for his taste. i just want to make him happy. =) can't wait to see him again in two weeks!

last weekend was a bit crazy. after lab on friday, i met up with armando and al at le bateau ivre, the drunken boat cafe on telegraph. i'd never been there, but it's really cute and they have cool coffee drinks, so i think i'll go there more often from now on. then i met up with jenbug and we went to the city with some dancesafe people for dinner at kan zaman, a middle eastern restaurant complete with hookahs and a belly dancer. the food was SOOO good - i looove hummus, tabouleh, kibbi, grilled veggies, falafel, oh my! we also got wine and beer so we were all tipsy...mucho fun with the crew...the belly dancer had a nice body for a 40-year-old, but was not hot at all. bleh. afterwards, we went to jen's place and hung out, but most of us were tired from working during the day and just went home around midnight. i liked chilling with them cuz they're so different from the people i normally see at cal. they're all awesome people and i can't wait to get to know them even better.

Saturday night was nancy-pants' 22nd birthday. we got her an apron that says "i'm naughty nance, let me cook up your fancy" and some gaudy earrings. =D cuz we love her of course. a bunch of monta vista people (tiff, ken, mike, grace, jeff, me, nance) plus vio, martha, and jenn went to her place for dinner - zachary's - so good but SO damn filling. too much cheese. we got her raspberry custard cake and tiramisu for her birthday cakes. then we all piled into mike's car to go to suite 181 in the city. a bunch of people came out for her birthday...nancy's so looooved! the night ensued with dancing on the bar, lots of girl-on-girl freaking, and plenty of group shots (of alky) until 3 am. the venue's really nice and spacious with areas to sit and rest. not that we really rested at all. nancy didn't get sick, so twas good times, good times.

now it's time to reassess my priorities. i don't really have any desire to go clubbing for a long time unless some awesome dj is spinning at a great venue, namely fluid, suite 181, or ruby skye. i'm also not craving junk food or heavy foods like pasta or korean bbq, although i'm not rejecting the possibility of garlic fries at the giants game on friday. i feel that as my college career winds down, it's a good time in my life to cleanse myself of unhealthy material satisfaction and undesirable social pressures to want certain things. it's time to simplify my life before it gets more complicated with adult worries. this morning i went to brett's energy workshop and i found it difficult to ground myself. i believe that part of the process toward thinking of myself as spirit will include reducing the unnecessary concerns on my mind and focusing in on what is truly important to me. CHOICE. this may mean letting go of some of my activities for the time being. i've been in effect for too long. let's...start...now!