back in action

since may, life has been so fulfilling i'm having trouble returning to reality. first was graduation and wrapping up college life, moving out of my home for three years. then came the spontaneous decision to live with an old family friend and move to oakland, a place that i wouldn't have expected to end up after school. i was fortunate enough to have a fitting job fall into my lap right before i left for a month of backpacking in europe with the love of my life and two of my oldest friends. how can you top that?

now i just want to revel in the novelty of being self-sufficient and non-academic. i want to go to work, indulge in hobbies, go on random weekend trips, and be carefree! i want to row for the dragon boat team, become a true wine connessieur, perfect my cooking skills, make websites to share my interests, catch up with all my friends - new and old, earn extra money selling on amazon and ebay, read read read, take up running, yoga!, travel to asia and south america, see my boyfriend more than once a month, produce music, write more, visit my sister in new york, understand financial investments, meditate an hour daily, work in europe next year, organize my LIFE. there's so much to do and so little precious time on this beautiful earth.

yet, i'm anchored to my unfinished thesis and waiting medical school application with deadlines soon approaching. i work at least 8 hours a day and derm work follows me home in the form of disease pamphlets and terminology to study. the apartment still needs some embellishment. my car needs to be cleaned. there is laundry to be done. records and budgets must be kept up and emails always take forever, though most are pleasant to read. i'm resigned myself to the fact that i'll always have projects that aren't finished on time, but the point is to make an effort to complete the most important ones first, instead of the preferred choices. the goal is to be at cause, not in effect. here it goes.