complete and utter ____

i'm stuck in this utter mess i have created, incomplete beyond all words. i'm a disappointment to those who care about me. i have failed to impress. i am but mediocre. i assume an air of capacity, but those who are far superior can stare straight through my weak veil. there may not be a natural hierarchy among humans, but i am slipping out of the rankings faster than a falling star. i feel blessed to be a part of this world, but unworthy all the same.